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December 13th, 2014 § 6 comments § permalink

ON ONE SOCIAL MEDIA SITE OR ANOTHER THE OTHER DAY. Doing that thing that is done. Reading, sharing, thinking. Clicking boxes and buttons to show the world who I am, one preference or comment at a time.

Someone finds and follows me. Begins reblogging a lot of my posts. After a week, or so, I imagine we are on a wavelength. Then, one day they add a long comment to a post I’d made.

You know how two people can read one thing and come away with two wholly different ideas of what is in there? The details of the original post are not so important. But at one point in their writing they wrote that they were ‘glad they had no race.’ And that stopped me. I responded to the first part, but to that addendum I didn’t quite know what to type aside from “Err…”

Because honestly I had no idea of what, in this language, I could say to that. I simply did not understand it. What did that mean? To ‘have no race’ when the person in question was descended of one black parent and one white? It confronted just about everything I feel I have come to understand about this bogeyman, ‘race.’ And in no way I could mentally engage. Looking back, perhaps a more coherent and productive comment would have been I’m not understanding what you mean when you say you ‘don’t have a race.’ Do you mind speaking on that at all? So, I’ll own that. I could’ve approached more…articulately.

But truly, I was baffled and sort of just stammered. » Jump the border and read on «

As it is Within, so it is Without

August 27th, 2014 § 1 comment § permalink

The Silver ChairCONSIDER ME A WHISPER. Consider me a tiny voice, as soft as a slow wind running its velvet fingers over pebbled asphalt at 2 a.m. Receive me as you would the first blush of day’s light, reflected from the eager skin of an apple. I’m a minuscule mirrored cinema. A voice that gently suggests they truly are mad, you know. Cast away your doubt, be still, and listen to them. The news barkers sharing world gore and speaking of war as if a football score. The virtual storefronts peddling doubt and self-interest. They who hog the mic, they who sell the mic.

Be still and listen. Be still and watch. Can you see? They hate everything about you, and themselves, too. 

It’s okay that you were convinced and connived into thinking it makes sense to punish the weak, abhor the poor, worship the predatory, elevate the superficial, strangle the truth until it flees your language, and despise the despised. You are a pure soul in a poisoned land. A hostile land. A land and society that wants to exploit you, steal from you, suck at you, chew at you, use you, abuse you, discard you, disgrace you, erase you. You learned what you needed to learn to fit in and survive. Your heart screamed at you before you learned to think about it: THESE ARE HAUNTED SOULS WHO WILL DESTROY YOUR HEART IF YOU HAND IT TO THEM…. » Jump the border and read on «

What Does LATISM Really Stand For? or How to Neutralize a Movement to the Sound of Cheers

June 25th, 2014 § 1 comment § permalink

Regular readers: This post is important, and provides a breakdown longer, perhaps, than the attention span we are trained for; truth deeper than a feel good rant, and tools to help us come to understand some of the forces at work today seeking to divide and dilute our political power and self image. David, a compa I work with, researched and penned it over at Hecho en Aztlán, and aside from the blurb, some minor formatting tweaks I gave it for UMX, and the title, it is David’s work, and we thank him for it. Please take a little time and arm yourself with this info. It is, I submit, foundational in the next shape of our movement, and more will come from various quarters that will build on it.

En lucha y amor, Nez


IF YOU HAVE MADE FREQUENT USE OF SOCIAL MEDIA IN THE LAST FEW YEARS, you have undoubtedly come across the “LATISM” acronym a number of times.

LATISM stands for Latinos in the Social Media and is often used as a hashtag on Twitter: #latism.

Many in social media view LATISM uncritically and embrace it as an all-in-one remedy for bridging the technological divide between Euro-Americans and the so-called “Pan-Latino” community.

This media collective of pan-Latino Hispanics, which largely consists of east coast Puerto Ricans and Cubans, stand to gain much sought after attention and web traffic for their affiliated news organizations.

Truth be told, the Pan-Hispanic/Latino collective is maneuvering itself to stake a claim into what is purported to be almost $1.38 trillion in purchasing power. » Jump the border and read on «

I Would Rather Hand You Your Conscience Than Control Your Hand

April 4th, 2014 § 2 comments § permalink

I WAS THINKING about how we are so many parts. Using words the teachers gave us, ones we invent, some that get created by relationships with others and nobody else understands. Coined words, Slang words, Caló, Cholo, English, Black Vernacular, French, Japanese, Chinese, German. Wearing clothes of various cut, crafted by chafed and worn hands we often never hold. Practicing traditions handed down by our ancestors, different ancestors, from different places. Eating foods from all ends of the Earth. Acting out what our parents have modeled, and at times purposely practicing the opposite. Body postures shaped by exercise, pain, injury, inner strength, inner turmoil, or habit.

We are a hybrid happening. It is a shape taken naturally by humans as we learn and mimic and others mimic what we happen to invent; as we open our minds and lives to new ways. We do draw limits. I suppose if we simply floated aimlessly and amalgamated everything that came into our way, we would soon return to the spattered pattern of the rain, to the whim of the wind. Though to me, this is fine, too. I like that idea, that feel. It is exhausting to exert control all the time.

And then, there are those shapes reified by observance and repetition. Tradition and heritage are about creating a shape that persists, a shape formed by meaning. It is putting our hands in the clay, and shaping, day after day after day. » Jump the border and read on «

Do Not Imagine the Shape of Your Mind as Stone

April 4th, 2014 § 0 comments § permalink

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I AM THE HYBRID METHOD; the shift-cleft breathless and deft fusion of hue, chroma, and death; of the right and the left; of the wailing bliss (I rise like this). A howl of spring spray and rose bloodied mist. Seeker of the dew studded igneous rift.

When the world retreats, I lift.

DO NOT imagine the shape of your mind as stone
a formed at birth bone
bowl meant to hold
all the dusty dreams left by men long grown cold

because

I’VE SEEN YOU before. Posing as disaster and pain. Beauty, pearl-wrapped and clutched by the jagged edges of clam-shaped clouds. Stormlight.

so know

THE MORE VISIBLE and powerful you grow, the harder they will come for ya. Who is “they?” Timeless. Nameless. Forces evoked by change. Entropy.

Go. Be fast, be slow. Be what you are, be what you know.

Normalcy is Hella Expensive in Deathstar Village

February 28th, 2014 § 5 comments § permalink

OBVIOUSLY, there are a few newsy items we might discuss when it comes to Latinidad, México, Xicanism@, and so on. The arrest of El Chapo, head of the Sinaloa Cartel, is one, for sure. (I smirk wide enough that my head falls off and I have to pick it up and screw it back on my neck. Yesterday’s US partner in crime is always tomorrow’s headline villain, eh? It’s telling that some people are even using the specter of Osama Bin Laden to galvanize public thought and feeling on the issue. Not that in doing so, such writers will underline the fact that Bin Laden was another old friend. And why on Earth would most media discussion avoid the topic of the “violation of public international law …and of due process and of human rights” that was the DEA/Sinaloa alliance for over ten years? Now, the DEA is filling the web with seeds about how they’ve wanted to capture El Chapo for all that time, and that THEY have evidence that HE was selling drugs on Chicago streets. But yanno. Of course they are telling the whole truth. Oceania has always been at war with Eastasia.)

Anyway. I’ll admit that I’ve had a lot more on my mind and on my plate lately than these motions in society. Not to minimize world events. Good ole Maslow’d know.

Close friends and readers (in the right spaces) have been aware that I spent the last couple weeks in a motel off the side of the highway after having to leave my last place with little warning. That’s been an adventure. And when I say “adventure,” I kinda mean ‘a test of my sanity.’ I kid. Wasn’t so bad. In fact, feeling my entire life hovering a few inches off the wet pavement was a blast. It made me feel like Neo. Especially when Neo runs wild with the pent up kids to keep them exercised, and loses his iPhone in the wet, charcoal, night. Now you’re stuck in the Matrix, kid, with a motel key and a bowl of cornflakes. The milk just ran out and there is no spoon. » Jump the border and read on «

the vague, rainy, town of eilanwurl

February 13th, 2014 § 0 comments § permalink

FROM MY VANTAGE POINT here on the outskirts of town, the world has quieted. I feel a bit of an escapee, after all. An escapee from the popular plot line. A fugitive from the prescribed Proper. An exile of a once glimmering arc.

Does it validate us morally, as Americans, when we succeed in the ways prescribed by every droning voice that narrates American culture between the lines; when we have two bank accounts, three credit cards and 10K in savings? Doesn’t it justify our every quirk when we drive it around in a well working car, wrapped in a smart wardrobe, on top of a gleaming credit score, and snugly seated in our own home? Does it not mean that we are superior in quality, or in the ability to harness our own power, or at the very least, that we are the quite special recipient of some unnamed golden wink of GODD-LUCH?

What can it mean when we fail at the American Dream? When we are not liquid, solvent, affluent, climbing ever upward and forward that oh-so-linear path toward American Worth? What else can it mean but that we are criminal? Guilty of desecrating the holy aura of the Dream. We are deviant. We do not disprove the Capitalist mantra, oh no no, we are, of course, simply a glitch in the matrix. We have spiraled into our own egregious arc, and the system is punishing us for our violations.

I am a once-famous personality submerged in the vague, rainy town of eilanwurl. That’s not a real name, but neither am I a real personality. Just a vagabond; a bard of sorts. An artist, which means I’m nearly useless in Babylon. And out here where the rushing of cars is the only music, I am but a ghost. » Jump the border and read on «

Is the DEA Dealing Drugs in Your Neighborhood?

January 15th, 2014 § 1 comment § permalink

The DEA is not dealing drugs in your neighborhood! Silly. That would be like Colonel Sanders working behind the counter of KFC, handing out change and greasy chicken wrapped in wax paper. No, like the CEOs of KFC, the DEA outsources the labor. In the case of the DEA, to one of the largest cartels in Mexico. The Sinoloa Cartel, to be specific.

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In the 12 year alliance with one of Mexico’s largest drug cartels, we have to ask ‘how much drugs has the DEA helped import into the USA?’

 

But let’s back up a moment.

It’s important to keep your eye on the horizon. Learning to drive, you will be taught that staring at the road right in front of your car’s hood will leave you with no reaction time, and increase your chances of having an accident. You learn to watch the road at the horizon. This will keep you informed of everything headed your way. This is a simple concept that will aid your critical understanding of everything in your life. Keeping a broad overview of your terrain will best prepare you to navigate it.

In the case of gangs like the DEA, they are not here to keep you informed. Like most gangs, they are about consolidating their own power. In public, their spokespersons will throw out all kinds of disinformation and PR chaos-control. Running back and forth trying to decipher the boilerplate from the reality will leave you slamming your brakes, wasting gas, swerving left and right, and eventually, slamming your mental filters into each and every piece of detritus coming down the parkway. You will end up confused and distracted and unsure—exactly how modern media empires and plutocrats want you.

So lift the eyes and suss out the patterns over time. Form your picture of people and things from a more detached and thoughtful place. Factor in all the info that comes your way from various sources and readings. The lens that includes context and experience and history is a more reliable one. The lens that trusts the eye behind it is unshakable. Trust your inner eye. » Jump the border and read on «

Your Heart is a Nuclear Force

January 13th, 2014 § 2 comments § permalink

YOUR ENTHUSIASM for a new day, a fresh start, and all the possibility there.

YOUR REFUSAL to drag yesterday’s angst and mental clutter forward into this new time.

YOUR UNDERSTANDING of the joy born from simple moments and experiences.

YOUR AWARENESS of the mental traps your mind designs.

YOUR EMBRACE of beauty in the most mundane of situations because

YOU KNOW the gift that is life.

YOU SAY THANK YOU to creation in the way you use this life, this awareness, this moment.

YOU RADIATE gratitude.

YOUR HEART IS A NUCLEAR FORCE. You handle it with reverence.

Return of the Neon Cornfighter, Chapter Two

January 12th, 2014 § 2 comments § permalink

A WRITER APPROACHED ME, WITH AN INTERESTING PROPOSAL. Hmmm. Perhaps I could describe him as a “blogger,” or…a friend. Whatever words I choose, the point is—years had passed since last we spoke. And many projects since undertaken. And very little conversation between us.

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Not to be overly dramatic. After all, there was no need for conversation. We didn’t do any hanging out. We were not in each other’s city, or even country. We were two known names in our niche, when we met three or four years ago. I suppose that was the only common link. Aside from that we both are of Mexican descent and by nature, stand up and try to help in some way, or just to spit fire for la comunidad—as various and varying as that community may be!

We found each other—or he found me—because, truth is, there really aren’t a lot of writers either swinging the verbal blade or staying alert in the flower-made shade…in the name of Raza. » Jump the border and read on «

The Freedom is Thick

January 8th, 2014 § 12 comments § permalink

OFTEN, BEING SILENT IS THE SMARTEST POSSIBLE MOVE. And then, other times, you better open your mouth and speak your heart! Like so many other things in life, each one of us has to suss the distinction out for her or himself. I needed to be quiet for a while. But like Ole Ben Kenobi, I sensed a million fireflies crying out at once, and, yanno, undulating to the beat of a wooden silkworm or something, so here I am.

Not a lot has changed online since the last time I turned off the lights in this joint, eh? Vendid@s spring up like whack a moles hungry for the sour sting of selling out to stereotypes (Devious Maids, really? That hurts like having a spy stick you in the ribs when you go to clap hands, yo. Let white folks slather on the wicked and reductive stereotypes! Why you wanna do that to y’own people?). People of Color (especially Black) people are held to ridiculous standards in entertainment and media, and white folks can blurt out any ole thang and expect a mob of approval in any comment thread downwind of Pluto.

Joe Arpaio is still in office, yeah? Although some very irritated teen wants to remove his cojones with a cleaver, wow. (Such ambition really does seem more American, than Canadian, though. I must say.)

Democrats have come no closer to protecting Mexicans and immigrants from exploitation and harm at the hands of the paranoid and repulsed reflexes of a nation terrified of Otherly influence and forgetting its debts and origins. But why would they? » Jump the border and read on «

Ten Things You Can Do to Feel Rich–Aside From Voting Republican

November 12th, 2012 § 9 comments § permalink

We all have those friends. They are Republican–for some reason–and maybe to someone like Grandpa, the Republican image and ideology made sense. But times have changed a whole lot, and the so-called party of conservatives are not conservative whatsoever.

Back in the day, just being known as a “Republican” made you feel…dunno. Like an Alex Keaton in a house of hippie parents. Suave. Smart. Well-monied. Reliable. Responsible. Upright and clean. But lately being a “Republican” makes your soul feel the pariah, as if using Rush Limbaugh’s last five minutes on stage; makes you feel bloated, like Rush Limbaugh’s Viagra satchel; cranky, as if Lou Dobbs were your conscience; out of step–like Pat Buchanan’s whip hand rhetoric. In fact, face it: almost nothing about today’s GOP makes you proud. All that remains of your affiliation…is a vague feeling that the up and comers ought to be Republicans….shouldn’t they?

Listen. Let go of the past. Now is the time. Here are ten things you can do to feel rich. Aside from voting Republican.

1. EAT TINY SANDWICHES. Word. Nothing makes me feel more elegant, refined, and just plain rich as hell than eating those miniature sandwiches, and for good measure stick sharp little wood things in them and keep your pinky aloft while you nibble.

2. WEAR PLAIN CLOTHES. I know, you think that to look rich you should be draped in silks and furs and gems. But Old Money lays low. It’s the New Money so crass and in a rush to convince the world they have style who end up looking flashy and obviously loaded. You? You go the other way. Sure, some folks might think your casual sweater and slacks are old JC Penny and you have the style of an old man, but YOU will know what’s up. Your sitting on billions. You’re so damn rich you can flaunt socks that don’t even have elastic left in them. Whatever.

3. LEAVE THE “THOUSAND” OFF OF MONEY AMOUNTS. Dropping three grand on a weekend’s outfit is business as usual for you. So when talking about the new hot tub you are going to have air lifted to the deck, just let it drop casually that it’s costing, “Oh…who remembers. Eight or nine, after the Italian marble is laid in. I think. Or not. Anyway. Have you seen the tiny sandwiches?” » Jump the border and read on «

NO MORE WAR ON THE POOR

September 25th, 2011 § 24 comments § permalink

A lot of people in the USA these days are going broke. It hardly matters if you have a G.E.D. or a Master’s degree. Unemployment is creeping through the populace like a billion-fingered thief. The number of people on food stamps in the USA today is unprecedented, and what’s left of our national safety net after Clinton and Bush took their turns hacking it apart is a threadbare mess with holes in it the size an entire city block can fit through without sucking in its belly.

More people were living in poverty in 2010, according to the census, than in all the time the census has been collecting data. People are dying from untreated dental problems, laws are appearing left and right that penalize the homeless and the poor, prisons are profiting, a dull rage is building, and the bottom line is a lot of people—far too many—are poor and getting poorer.

The kicker is that it won’t be getting better any time soon. The unemployment rate is predicted to continue to grow, well into 2014.

All of this is very bad news, indeed.

 

THE LAND OF HAND TO MOUTH

It’s an unhappy scene, poverty. And we’re not talking about the presence or absence of one or two niceties. The low, low place that living hand to mouth can bring you is much more complex and all-encompassing than not being able to afford one or two top shelf amenities that might make life a bit more enjoyable when you’re out there grinding away.

For most of my life I’ve been like most of the world, I guess—getting by without a whole lot of money. Sometimes it’s been real bad. Sometimes it’s been average. And sometimes, for a minute, life’s been pretty comfortable. The truth is, though, that those comfortable times have been pretty short lived. And even then, my standard of comparison is one you’d find in a person who grew up in a poor family.

What do I mean by “poor”? I mean at our worst we were homeless and cooking food in a campfire, or living in a house with buckets for toilets. And at our best, we were trying hard to fit into the suburban middle class, but still accepting bags of hand me downs from other families. By poor, I mean the regular presence of bargain brands; I mean the type of life where you grow up always thinking about how much things cost, and how you don’t have enough to do A, B, or C; and mostly, I mean the type of deeply-seeded awareness where poverty is a way of your thinking and acting. I’m not proud of this, and I don’t think it necessarily makes a person deep or interesting. It’s just how I grew up.

Even through all of that, there was the sense that you could escape it. Maybe. One day. Going to bed hungry means you and your little brother would meet up and sneak food from the fridge after everyone else was asleep. But even on nights you couldn’t quell the hunger that was so much deeper than stomach pangs, you imagined that if you were talented enough and motivated enough, you would be plucked out of such fates and arrive in the Land of Where You Have Always Belonged; that there was a golden cot with your name on it, just waiting for you to show your mettle. After all, woven deeply into the American consciousness are a few narratives. One of them is the Rags to Riches myth; essentially the Conservative notion of Bootstrap. The myth that we live in a land of abundant opportunity, and in which no matter what your meager beginnings, if you stick it out, there is gold enough to go around.

I guess we all buy into that in this place. But recent times have put a harsh dent into those kinds of ideas.

» Jump the border and read on «

Them Who Shall Be Asked For Papers

May 5th, 2011 § 5 comments § permalink

WE BEGIN, but do not end, with the sensational incident where the Obama White House, under Trumpian pressure, produced for public inspection the President’s “long form” birth certificate.

I do not know how successful I will be in my attempts to navigate the journey, but I think it’s important to move from an immediate feeling of hurt or anger to a broader view of the very thing that moves behind this event and is so upsetting about it. This is what I will try to do.

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Why can’t we roam this open country?
Oh, why can’t we be what we wanna be?
We want to be free.

–Bob Marley, 3 o’Clock Roadblock

ROADBLOCK

What a frenzy.

What a storm of feelings, thoughts, tweets, and emotions were exploded into view with that one event, where the President of the United States of America—a man of color—answered the insincere jeering of a single white citizen by producing his identity papers for inspection. As if our duly elected President was but a teen at a police checkpoint, wearing baggy pants and with his hands up against the hood. As if he were a young man standing on a corner looking Mexicano, immediately suspect and thus beholden to the law man to prove he was not up to criminal acts. What a shaking of the timbers of racial history were felt up and down the blogosphere in this one simple happening.

And rightly so. What a harsh reality we trade in; that it will take far more time than our grandparents’, parents’, or our own lifetimes to evolve past the sickly, sadistic, inhuman history we Americans share on matters of race. In matters of history—look to Mexico, or China, or Egypt—this country is in an infantile stage. And the things that were done to African Americans, and Indians (indigenous peoples from el Norte as well as from south of the “border”); to Chinese and Japanese and Chileans and so on…. these ghosts will not fade fast.

Donald Trump is one of those ghosts, his ailing caricature of a human form cavorting to and fro, swaying recklessly but cleverly. Almost as if animated by an actual soul, he bellows nearly-intelligible sounds, and the media flocks to absorb the spittle. His expression remains forever puckered like a lemon-shocked anus-mouth, his mind alight with tired stereotypes and bursts of fart-static. A clown who doesn’t have the decency to laugh at himself.

And Donald is so easy to hate, isn’t he? Because he is a hateful man. And because he enlists the powers of hate, hate long rooted in American soil. Hate that long ago drew blood and tossed ropes and smiled for the picture as the body cooled to a dusk-like temperature. Hate that raided Native American villages to murder sleeping children. Hate that buffed its boots before demanding that black men duck their eyes, and go drink from some other fountain. Hate that considers women, and Blacks and Cubans and Haitians and Iraqis and Afghanis and Mexican and Chinese and Vietnamese and Puerto Rican as less than human. Hate today that spends Joe Arpaio’s paycheck, props up his decaying frame, and parades his prisoners in pink. Hate yesterday that reneged on treaties, and swallowed up gold, and burned codices. » Jump the border and read on «

News With Nezua | The Invisible Flower

February 15th, 2011 § 12 comments § permalink

AND SO IT FALLS ON US here at UMX—as well as at other blogs and independent news sites—to spread the word; to remember the name and smile of Brisenia Flores; to make clear that this killing is no isolated event perpetrated by a couple “crazies,” but is woven tightly to the anti-Mexican/anti-immigrant/anti-Latin@ sentiment that festers in so many layers of popular US culture.

From the fearful, punitive talk about immigrants espoused by Republican and Democratic politicians alike, to the video games that posit Mexicans as criminal invaders, to the movies that only present Latinos as gangbangers or cocaine kingpins or street thieves or knife wielding degenerates, to the movements in states like Arizona to wipe out Chican@ culture and history and aim to have us living in fear, to the judicial brutality and disproportionate police punishments meted out to the brownskinned, signals are continually broadcast to the public at large that mark us as less than human and offer us as viable targets for derision, fear, and violence.

Uncovering that—clearly—is far too big a story for any station today to break.

This episode of News With Nezua throws a pointed jeer at the contortions these mainstream news sites must adopt in order to justify turning away from this particular story and stories like this.

This episode of News With Nezua is brought to you by Center for New CommunityYouTube version here.

Past episodes of News With Nezua are archived here.